Why Do I Sabotage Myself?

Honey, you don't.... there's no such thing as self sabotage.  It's a constructed label. I'll unpack it for you, but first let's start at the beginning. 

“Why do I keep sabotaging myself?”

It’s one of the most common questions I hear.

And I completely understand why.

On the surface, it does look like sabotage.

You say you’ll go to the gym… and you don’t.
You plan to eat well… and you reach for chocolate.
You want the relationship to work… and you pull away.
You commit to the business idea… and then procrastinate.

From the outside, it looks like you’re getting in your own way.

But as the charming rebellious sagittarius that I am, I'd like to challenge this idea.

The Hidden Assumption Behind “Self-Sabotage”

The idea of self-sabotage rests on one very important assumption:

That there is a correct way to behave…
And that you are deviating from it.

But who decided what “correct” is?

Let’s take something simple.

You don’t go to the gym one morning.

Is that sabotage?

Or is it your body asking for something different?
Slower. Softer. Less intense.

You eat chocolate before breakfast.

Is that sabotage?

Or is it a moment of pleasure… a small lift… something your system genuinely enjoys?

You find yourself eating a whole bar in the evening.

Is that sabotage?

Or is that your nervous system reaching for regulation… for comfort… for something that helps you relax at the end of a long day?

When we label these behaviours as “self-sabotage”…

We're not considering nuance or context and we're placing ourselves on trial.  

Your Nervous System Is Not Trying to Ruin Your Life

Your nervous system is not wired for sabotage.  It's not trying to make things worse for you.  

Your nervous system is wired for regulation.

Every behaviour you engage in is, in some way, an attempt to soothe, protect, stabilise and restore balance. 

Even the behaviours you wish you didn’t do.

Especially those actually.  

This is something I explore more in Stressed Out, Burned Out — where I talk about why the body isn’t failing you but communicating with you.

So when you reach for chocolate at night, it may not be a lack of discipline.

It may be the only tool your system currently has for coming down from the day.

When you avoid something important…

It may not be sabotage.

It may be your system saying:

“I don’t feel safe doing this yet.”

The Violence of the Word “Sabotage”

Let’s be honest about the language.

“Sabotage” is a harsh word.

It implies deliberate harm, self betrayal and something quite malicious as if there’s a part of you actively working against you.

But what if that part of you is actually… devoted to you?

Protecting you in the only way it knows how.

There’s something rebellious in shifting from:

“What’s wrong with me?”

To:

“What is this part of me trying to do for me?”

Because the moment you ask that question, you're on a pathway to healing.  

When “Good Behaviour” Becomes the Problem

Sometimes the issue isn’t the behaviour…

It’s the rigid idea of what you should be doing.

We live in a culture that praises discipline, optimisation, productivity, clean eating, perfect routines and it subtly shames anything outside of that.

But here’s the paradox.

The more tightly you grip these ideals…

The more your system may push back.

And this isn't because you're being difficult, but it might be because it's not what your body actually wants.  

This is where the pendulum swings:

Restriction leads to overcompensation
Control leads to collapse
Perfection leads to avoidance

And then we call that… sabotage.

But it’s not sabotage.

It’s a system trying to find equilibrium based on an unconscious 'hand me down' value system.  Based on a system that has a wonky starting point.  

There Is Always a Positive Intention

This idea isn’t new.

In fact, it’s echoed across multiple therapeutic and philosophical models.

In parts work and Internal Family Systems, every behaviour is seen as having some kind of protective role.

In hypnotherapy, we understand that the subconscious mind is always working in your best interest… even when the outcome doesn’t look that way.

In behavioural psychology, habits form because they work in some way — they deliver relief, reward, or regulation.

So instead of asking:

“Why do I do this to myself?”

We ask:

“What is this behaviour giving me that I currently don’t know how to access in another way?”

That question opens a door, it opens the pathway to healing. 

Compassion Before Change

Here’s the part that often gets missed.

We think that if we’re more compassionate with ourselves…

We’ll lose motivation.

We’ll become lazy.

We’ll never change.

But in reality…

Compassion creates the conditions for change.

Because when you feel safe…

You don’t need to grip so tightly.

You don’t need to self-soothe in the same way.

You don’t need to override your own signals.

This is something I touch on in What It Really Takes To Make A Lasting Change — where sustainable change doesn’t come from pressure…

It comes from alignment.

So What Do You Do Instead?

If we drop the idea of self-sabotage, not by saying "anything goes", but we refine it, we collect more nuance around it.  

1. Get Curious, Not Critical

Instead of:

“I’ve sabotaged myself again”

Try:

“What did I need in that moment?”

2. Identify the Function of the Behaviour

What is it doing for you?

• Is it soothing?

• Distracting?

• Giving you energy?

• Helping you avoid something that feels too much?

3. Expand Your Toolkit

Once you understand the need…

You can begin to meet it in different ways through conscious choice and this is where structured work becomes powerful.

Because you’re not just removing a behaviour and leaving the wound open to fend for itself.   You're replacing it with something that genuinely works for your system.

4. Work at the Right Level

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy only, tends to work at a top layer, but what about the subconscious patterns underneath them?

The identity.

The nervous system.

The learned associations from childhood.

This is where my work (my unique blend of hypnotherapy, RTT, Identity Re-patterning and coaching) becomes incredibly effective.

Because we’re not trying to override the system, there's nothing to 'overcome' in the traditional sense.  

We’re upgrading your system, slowly over time in a way that you'll hardly even notice.  

If you want to explore this more, you can read Does Hypnotherapy Really Work? Brighton Hypnotherapist Shares the Research

A More Honest Truth

You are not sabotaging yourself.

You are responding perfectly to the internal world you’re currently living in.

And when that internal world shifts, your behaviours naturally follow.

There's nothing to force... it all happens quietly in the background through the natural laws of alignment and coherence (but that's for another blog!)

If You’re Ready for a Different Approach

If you’re tired of battling yourself…

And you want to understand what’s really driving your patterns…

This is exactly the work I do.

👉 Hypnotherapy Brighton – Work With Me
https://www.sallygarozzo.com/

Or if anxiety and regulation feel like the underlying layer:

👉 Anxiety Therapy Brighton
https://www.sallygarozzo.com/anxiety-therapist-brighton

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